---Tom Stoppard, "Rosencratz and Guildenstern are Dead"
Love that play. By the way, I just saw a production of "Hamlet" in Stratford, Ontario. I love "Hamlet," but this production was awful. Don't bother. See "Cabaret." So amazing. Seriously, there are no words...
Now to business.
Who: Call me Ishmael. Just kidding.
What: The purpose of this blog is to chronicle my exploits and misadventures as I take a gap year from Harvard and travel to Milan to study opera and vocal performance.
Where: Cambridge, MA; Detroit, MI; Milano, Lombardia
When: Sept 1, 2008-May 15, 2009
Why: I'm a nineteen-year-old college student, who at the beginning of her sophomore year of Harvard (yes, that Harvard, stop drooling), discovered she was miserable there. There were a plethora of reasons to leave, and so rather than suffer through two more years of the same grind, depression, competition and unfulfilling attempts at academic grandiosity, I decided to take a gap year and do what I love best: sing opera.
I promise you all right now, I will keep the angsty, whiny, existentialist postings to the bare minimum. That's what LiveJournal's for.
That said, I've spent my last couple of weeks in simultaneous anxiety and ecstasy. On one hand, I've done the whole "going-to-a-new-place-starting-over" schtick so many times. I know I'll get through it. I'm very glad I'm not returning to school. Being able to relax and breath without feeling like I'm wasting time will be wonderful.
On the other hand, that doesn't make the actual act of going there and starting over any easier.
Full confession: I'm kinda sorta a little bit terrified of the other people on this program. I've had way too many bad social experiences stemming from these type of moves to think that this will be any exception.
It might not be. On the other hand, one thing has changed a whole lot: me. It's taken so long, many disappointments and heartbreaks, a lot of lost weight and overhauling my look and style, but I've finally managed to get to a point where I look in the mirror and I like what I see. I like who I have become, and I finally, finally feel like a whole real person with enough confidence to carry any kind of weight or responsibility on my shoulders.
So here we go. I'm going to take this new me and litmus test her in Milan for a year. See who she makes friends with, who she's attracted to, what/who's attracted to her, how her worldview has and will change. Pitch her against the ignorant douchebags and the spoilt princesses that I constantly encounter and see how she holds up.
Bring on the gelato, baby.
In other news: Palin? Holy freaking shish-kabobs I am moving to Australia.
Stay tuned! More to come.
venerdì 29 agosto 2008
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good luck, Maya! We'll miss you in Cambridge!
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